Twenty
I feel discomfort too often, whether it be in my stomach or my feet or my mind. I’m not sure what is normal. Often times we express extraordinary (and by extraordinary I am referring to something other than the standard of life) feelings or endeavors as something that should be applauded. Frequent stomach pangs and acute anxiety are not forms of acknowledged self-expression because I do not control them; they are forms of rebellion from external…no internal forces that I wish I could resist. I’ve tried so many times to rid myself of this excursion so that I could truly express myself, but herbal teas and hormone pills do nothing to rid my interior conquistadors. Nothing works.
Do other people endure this? Do they too not know what it feels to be alright? Is there such a thing as feeling truly at ease?
I do not know.
So rather than adjust myself, I will adjust others.
Art is an extremely endearing manipulator.
Because of our genetic makeup, no matter what is put in front of us we feel some catharsis. But I do not want that pity, rather I want you to feel that discomfort so that I too can feel normal.
It is too difficult for me to create a video a day. Rather than creating anything worthwhile, I am squeezing this ridiculous out of me that do nothing to showcase what I’m actually thinking.
I will continue using this as my sketchbook and use it as a real thought away from my personal tumblr. And videos/artwork will be frequent, but not as frequent as every day.
desotodeson asked: the video of gustav started playing while i was listening to junip and i kept playing it and pausing it and it was gr8
Hm……that sounds like an idea!
February 22, 2012
Gustav (In Reverse)
Maybe if we go backwards he’ll live longer.
February 21, 2012
Shock test #1: Boobs and Blood
I don’t find blood or nudity to be exciting at all when it comes to making a point in artwork.
So this is a video without a point.
There’s no use making up for lost time.
I wish my camera did not make every video look like the Blair Witch project.
I have missed the last four days.
To make up for lost time, or let it slip away.
We’ll see.
February 17, 2012
Webcam Face Study 1 (In reverse)
I will try to post videos this weekend but considering I will not have a camera in my possession…we’ll see.
February 16th, 2012
Poor Guy
This balloon had been floating around the dorm for several days. I could bear to see it miserably deflating no longer.
